Monday, February 16, 2009

That Stoopid Inner Voice!!


I was blissfully on my way to being 'Laziness personified' (if thats a real sentence) in my company, as there wasnt any boss around, except for the big guy who couldnt understand my job profile(designer) & with my desk safely tucked away into a corner, I was in a world of my own!!
& I took complete advantage of that - used to read online, watch movies(@home) till after 4am, then go to office & sleep it off.

A li'l voice in the back of my head reared its really really stoopid head & just got louder & demandin!!
& now, Voila - am in a new company!! same field wit li'l difference!! Went for the interview on sept 24th '08, joined on feb'09, recession havin interfered!!
wit many thanx to a colleague who I particulary didnt like when he was in my previous company(he actually helped me inspite of knowin that he bugs me & still does)!! cause now, am obliged to him. I recently threw up in his car(into a bag), so the obligations gone up a notch!!
I somehow always manage to stand out wherever I go!! 3/4th of the people here are malus & am the only one who doesnt talk malayalam!! My only orkut ebuddy works here coincidentally & he's actin like we never met before!!
I still question the wisdom of makin that jump & that stoopid voice is pipin up again slowly askin me
"What exactly is my purpose in this world?? What do I hope to achieve in my time?"

2 comments:

That Squirrel said...

It took me a while to understand that because all the I's look like "/". :p
It can be annoying when we start pondering about meaning and purpose. If you believe that you were created for a reason, let the reason be love :D Am I a philosopher or what? I shall go publish that line!

Karen Xavier said...

Shil, everybody questions their purpose in life... it's normal, its a good thing considering you and 'normal' never go together, so kudos... (P.S: Have you been reading about us humans... )
Anyway, anju's got some great lines huh... anju, you should start writing speeches for all these oscar/nobel/grammy etc prize winners, that line would sound awesome on live tv.